I would be happier if only I expressed my feelings more. I don't really know why, but throughout my adolescent life I've mastered the art of concealing my feelings. I'm a really bad liar, so I'm not talking about being untruthful. It's just that when I have something to say against a person, more often than not I just keep it to myself. I guess I found when I was much younger that I got into less fights and less trouble with my parents if I just shut up and nodded my heads. Now I can't get rid of the habit. When I'm being scolded by anyone in authority, I just grit my teeth and nod. I try to put on my best "remorseful" face (which my mom still sees as frowning...but then again she's the only one who's ever been good at seeing through my most ambiguous expressions). But secretly, I'm just zoning out so I don't really process what they're saying. And I do get into less trouble than my sister, who can never back out of an argument. But afterwards, I replay the scene in my head, rehearsing lines I should have said if I had the guts.