Finding Him

My parents don't know this, but I really don't enjoy going to Mass. The only reason I go is to be with them and my Lola. I'm not an atheist or anything; in fact I feel very strongly that there is a God. But I just can't find him in mass. When I hear the priest talking, I don't hear God telling me how to be a better human being. Most of the time, they just talk about what they think the Gospel means. But I find it increasingly more difficult to believe that it's the voice of God working through the Holy Spirit, etcetera. Sometimes I feel I have a better chance of finding Him in the mall or in school.