Been
trying to get around to this blog. I wrote it out a couple of days ago but
failed to publish or save it as a draft. *Facepalm*
Anyway,
it still baffles me how some elements of this blog have foreshadowed events to
date. The title, “Concrete Jungle” is self-explanatory. I will soon be living
in the place where dreams are made (of). I absolutely cannot wait. Perhaps the
tedium and safety of Singapore is getting to me. Perhaps I’ve finally realized
that my truest friends are still those in Manila and that some people here are just
fair-weather friends. Regardless, it’s no skin off my nose. My truest friends
are happy for me, and I can expect that each reunion with them will be like no
time has passed.
I
reflected on another post, “I Still Wanna Get In”. At one point in my life,
P&G was really all I wanted – and I wanted it with all my being. I thought
P&G would be the be-all and end-all. But now I realize it’s just another
great stepping stone. I admit there were times I really resented being in this
company. There were times I would scoff at 2-years-ago me and curse each day I’d
have to drag myself out of bed for work. But I realize now that I’ve grown more
in the past 1.5 years than I have in all my experience in high school and
college.
I
guess New York might be the same. A few weeks ago, I would have said that NYU
was everything that I wanted with my whole being. Now that it’s within reach, I
keep thinking to myself…what if it’s nowhere close to what I imagined? Or worse…what
if it is? Taking a book straight out of Disney’s “Tangled” – Flynn Rider told
Rapunzel that the only thing to do is find another dream. And that’s what has
kept me going, I guess. P&G was nothing like I hoped it would be, but it
was also somehow better. After I took away all that I could and should, I turned
to my next big dream, which was NY. After NY…marriage maybe? And then starting
my own consulting firm. And then having kids. And then who knows. I can only
see as far as 5-10 years.
These
visioning exercises Joy is making me do have been quite helpful.
